J and I's eighth month anniversary
I haven't been on Bear in awhile because I've been busy and this is only the first chance I have to really be on here since I last posted.
I've missed the tiny internet.
Anyway, today is J and I's eighth month anniversary, which makes me very happy considering that today was incredibly shitty and my thoughts have been everywhere. My anxiety was (and maybe still is) really bad today. I want Jack to scoop me up in his arms and hold me forever. Jack makes me happy. He puts a smile on my face, but not the way TDK would have most people believe. Thinking about him has made me feel better today. I want to spend time with him or do some more writing but I'm afraid I won't have time today.
I'm hoping to look through the Discover page sometime today. My anxiety was so bad today that I had to info dump a to-do list to calm myself down (I have adhd so my thoughts are always disorganized and the more anxious I feel, the more messy and jumbled they get. Also, I'm a visual thinker, so really seeing my thoughts written or typed helps me think, especially since I've been told that I can be very blunt when I type. As if you couldn't already tell, pfffft.)
In addition, since late-February/early-March I haven't felt very motivated to write fic or draw (I typically draw fan art of J, but I want to work towards being able to draw self shipping art of J, Eddie, Ahsoka, and I separately). Today I'm feeling slightly motivated so that makes me feel a tiny bit better. I don't know what else to write.
If anyone stumbles upon this or sees this, I hope you have a great day today.
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